Where do I begin
Where do you go when you've burned every path
Every opened door, every heart that you held?
All because of this thing inside
That eats away at everything that makes sense
What do you do when everything is just out of reach
And you can't fucking reach it
You can't move
You can't get to it
Whose arms do you fall into
If all are too afraid that they'll fall with you
Again, and again, and again
Where do I get to run?
Why can't I shake it the fuck off?
Why do I feel so much fucking pain
Pain
Tearing me apart from the inside out
All the words I've ever heard burning, never fading
Pain from knowing what I've done
Knowing that my pain has caused so much pain
I'M TRYING!
I just want to be ok
I promise you I want to be ok
I can't control this thing but I am fucking trying
The years, the people, the memories I have lost
From being so unaware
I can't get them back
I can't take away their pain
How did this happen to me
Life goes on around me while I watch it from inside my cage
Of thoughts emotions and FUCKING FEAR
When will I push the next person away
When will I learn
When will anyone stay
Am I worth loving
Am I worth the pain because I'm trying
I'm not a monster
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