Maybe

Maybe I'm just made of teardrops
And fear and loss and too much love
While others are made of the sun, the world.
Maybe I just can't see what they do
Maybe I just really believe nobody can truly and deeply love me
Others seem to exist, to interact, to create
I seem to destroy, to crash,
To live this inconsistent frightening life
Where is the manual
Where is the rule book
What do I need?
What fills this black hole of fear?

Something

Empty
In a familiar place, a state of mind
I am not something that people can love
I am unfortunate
A sad story
I am a hollow shell of pain
Tears fill my eyes and I grasp for something
Can anything take this shit away
Strong is elusive
I don't know why I keep this going
How can you love me
How did anyone say they did
I don't know how to do this
Someone just fill the emptiness
Someone understand
Someone please understand